Yesterday, final day of our incredible retreat with my incredible partner-in-teaching Jordan Rosenfeld and 18 incredibly intrepid writers, I found myself rushing faster and faster to the finish-line, my vision narrowing to one thing and one thing only — escape!! Well, not really escape. The weekend was filled with heart-felt memories and deep learning. Rather… solitude… space… freedom…
Finding more and more of a struggle to reconcile the outer me as teacher and presenter to who I am finally able to re-embrace as the shy, silent backwards daughter wrapped in a cloud of cotton candy. I’m left to wonder about that journey out of silence into the exotic world of words — damn, who knew there could be so many words generated at once?
Have you ever considered how many words are being written across the world at this very instant? How many being said? We’re all worried, and rightly so, about over-population of humans. What about over-population of words?
After the yapping excitement of returning home calmed, I settled in to revel in Maya Angelou on Oprah’s OWN Super Soul Sunday. She spoke of the pieces stolen from us when slung slights, criticisms, cruelty, discomfit. Makes you wonder how any pieces are left at a ripe old age. Fortunately, love and acceptance for exactly who you are go far toward filling in those missing pieces.
Can’t help but think of how many little pieces I lost this weekend, not stolen in meanness but offered with joy. Whole chunks of my thoughts and beliefs and knowledge and experience and magical thinking left me to grow and multiple on their own. I’m left feeling a bit like Swiss cheese.
The darkness of scarcity lifts as the light of abundance sweeps in.
Blessed time to go inward, refill, allow for space and the reconnection to that which sustains me — my own writing and the sea.
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